Recently I’ve been finding it hard to put what I am thinking
into words and began thinking that maybe some of you reading our blog may feel
the same way.
Being a teenager can bring so many memories and I’ve already
experienced these whilst still only being in my second ‘official year’ of being
a teenager. However being a teenager is often very hard and the pressure put on
teenagers in the current time is immense, causing a rollercoaster of emotions.
Currently, I am on a rollercoaster of emotions and no, not a
rollercoaster that Augustus Waters likes to ride which are the ones that only
goes up – I am on one that is constantly going on an incline however makes a
few, sudden descents and these past weeks I am on the descent, hoping that the
tracks will change soon.
Feeling distant from the world is painful, but if you’re
feeling the same way – please, please remember that there are a lot of people,
including many people around you, are feeling exactly the same way and you may
not even know it.
At the moment I’m having trouble myself with friends at
school and it’s quite hard seeing them around school and no longer feeling like
you can say or do the same things as what you did only two or so weeks ago.
Seeing the same friends you used to joke and laugh with daily, go out and have
fun without you is exceptionally difficult, especially for a very emotional
person like me.
I am the type of person to become anxious over the smallest
situations, to overthink the simplest of comments and to be effected by one or
two actions very, very quickly. This type of personality honestly, gets me
absolutely nowhere. I find myself quite sad a lot of the time, and however
cliché this may sound, I do put on a smile for those around me, so they don’t
see me ‘hurting’ or 'sad'.
But I want to change this, and even though I am going through this situation at
school, I’ve talked to four people whom are very special to me and listened to
people on social media sites and they have truly made me realise that school is only
a temporary thing, it doesn’t last forever, everything will get better and
everything will change.
The people who you see every day at school, if you don’t
want to see them again, then you don’t have to once you finish school. You can
leave them behind, just like any bad memories or sour thoughts you may have.
Think of leaving school for University, college or sixth form, as a new chapter
to the book of your life (cliché again, I know).
And for now, try and distract yourself from the thoughts you
think and the people who are making you think these thoughts. Do some drawing,
listen to your favourite band over and over, write your emotions through a new
book or a song, go for a run once or twice a week, do something that will distract you from your current state of mind.
Personally, I know this works. Whenever I feel sad or alone,
I sit at my laptop and I work on a chapter for a fanfiction I am itching to
write or I’ll lay in my bed and listen to The 1975 and close my eyes and think
about my day and reflect on everything going on and try to calm myself down.
However if you aren’t feeling this way and/or you think you know
someone that is feeling like this, make sure you ask if they are okay. A simple
message can have a huge effect on the
other person’s mood in an extremely good way, and making someone happy should
be something you look to do every day.
